Maybe you are struggling with infertility and it hurts to see all those inevitable pregnant bellies and new babies. Maybe you have been the subject of gossip and don’t want to show your face. Maybe you are struggling in your marriage (or separation, or divorce) and can’t stand to hear another lesson on eternal marriage. Maybe you feel like an outcast and don’t want to sit alone again.
There are numerous reasons why it might hurt to go to church. You dread Sundays and lay in bed coming up with excuses to stay home. Sometimes you do stay at home. Other times you peel yourself out of bed, get ready, and trudge your way through church. Sometimes you have to leave during the meeting because it is just too much.
I feel you, sister. I think it is much more common than anyone really knows. We keep it a secret after all. Heaven forbid someone finds out that it hurts to go to church and judge us. Because we all know it is possible. Some self-righteous saint might very well tell us we just need to pray more or some nonsense like that.
Sometimes it hurts to go to church. I am hear to tell you that it is okay to feel that way. I hope that you don’t always feel that way. I hope that you go through periods of your life where it doesn’t hurt anymore. But for now, sometimes it just hurts.
I’m not going to pretend I have all the answers for this. I don’t really have any solutions for you. Sometimes no matter what you do, how much you pray, and how many scriptures you read, it’ll still hurt to go to church.